I feel like I'm slipping back into depression and anxiety.
I lost my dad suddenly this year in a hit and run, we had a very small funeral due to corona with no wake, not been able to plan memorial party and court still going on. I feel like this has triggered it but it's been under the surface bubbling away.
Quit a uni course just over a year ago just due to extreme bullying from adults, it was awful. I switched and I'm doing a course I love now but I'm finding it difficult to concentrate on studying as;
I feel constantly anxious.
Never want to socialise.
feel awful about my appearance all the time
Heaviest weight I've ever been
Have no interest in intimacy or being touched as I feel quite repulsive.
So keen to get better but in my experience, anti depressants kill my sex drive.
I want to feel like the old me again.
Anyone have any positive experiences of anti depressants that don't give you the numb feeling along with no libido? Or has anyone found something revolutionary that's changed how they've dealt with spells of depression/anxiety?