Hi,
I'm afraid this is going to be a bit of a pity party. Apologies in advance. I'm fully aware I am far from alone.
It really is just one thing after another. My nans (undiagnosed) dementia has hugely accelerated since covid and she now can't recognise any of us, won't eat anything, is getting thinner by the day, is getting absolutely nothing out of life now and I fear she won't be here much longer.
My dad is having a nervous breakdown and seems to have aged so much over the past couple of months. He's full of fear and anxiety. My mum is having heart problems, which she is now having further investigations for and she has various other health issues come in over the past few months. They are now tier 3 and don't want any visitors. They're not even sure about meeting me outside anymore as they're so scared and it breaks my heart.
My dsis FIL has just died, completely unexpectedly and we were all very close to him. Absolutely lovely man.
To top it off, I've got this recurring pain in my lower right abdomen, which I've convinced myself is something sinister. I know I need to get it checked, but quite honestly the thought is making me feel sick right now.
Since all this, DP and I have also made the decision that we don't want more DC. Well we do, but we've decided against it for so many reasons, so I feel like I'm grieving for that too in a way
Anyway, I really don't know why I'm posting. I just feel as though I'm in a nightmare.
Thank you for reading. I'm sorry for the depressing tone.