Is leaving my job (when I don’t have another to go to) just now a silly idea?

[Snufflebabe05]

I work in FS and I’m miserable. I work long days, under resourced, a boss who doesn’t know how to say no to those above her, and there’s just no way I can see anything ever change. I’ve just had my review and despite a fantastic year in terms of output, it was an hour of negativity. My boss literally skimmed over what I’ve achieved this year, work that I’ve put so much effort into. I’ve tried and tried to make it work (spent 2 years here) but I think it would make sense to just call it quits. I’m not suited to this toxic environment and I don’t want to play the game. I came home and just sobbed and sobbed, so much I started to have what I can only describe as a panic attack. I’ve never had one before but couldn’t catch my breath and felt faint. I’m so upset. And feel like such a failure. I was at my previous company for 10 years and progressed throughout my time there (not FS) so just think I’m not suited to the culture here. But should I keep on being miserable until I find something else? Or do I jump ship and figure something out? I am a planner by nature, so the latter terrifies me. However, I have savings so we could survive for a while until I found something new.

What’s FS?

It’s a hard time to be looking for a job right now and it will likely get worse.

Could you cut your hours instead as a temporary way of making work better?

Hmm, FS can be tough. But jumping ship is quite a big step. Agree part time hours might be an option?

FS is financial services. I’ve tried and tried to make it work. I’ve written the papers asked for more resource and they go nowhere. I’ve been asked for this paper again (it will be the third time I’ve presented it.) Part of my job is to ask those more senior than me to do things but I get feedback via my boss (never in person) that I’m too direct and “authoritative.” But that’s literally my job. I took this feedback head on the first time a very senior person complained and the person in question was not able to explain anything. If you met me, I’m pretty bubbly and friendly. But asking people more senior than me (I’m pretty junior in their minds) seems frowned upon despite it being required as part of the job.I’m on holiday for a week or so now so using this time to focus on what’s next but I just can’t go on like this. Nothing is enough. They make me feel like I’m not enough.

@Snufflebabe05 I hear you, sounds like my job. If I were you I would definitely be thinking of an exit strategy but I would avoid handing in your notice where possible. Times are tough job wise at the moment and if you think you’ll struggle to get another then don’t give yourself the added pressure of being unemployed. Can you get signed off sick for two weeks with stress and then majorly job hunt?