I grew up in London, husband and I are currently trying to upsize in London and put down roots.
In recent years all of my friends have left London (mostly for Bristol), and last night found out my bestie is going too. She's the only friend I had left in the city. Pre-pandemic I had been trying to build more friendships and lean into some lapsed ones but I've never come near finding a new bestie, I just found some cool people who I could meet up with like maybe once a month. Post-pandemic many of them have become distant as I guess everyone is focusing their time on their nearest and dearest. I don't know how I could possibly make new friends at the moment with whom I could be very close. No clubs or anything like that are running.
I'm not especially enjoying my job and it doesn't "matter" in the grand scheme.
We're kind of tied to London as my MIL and FIL are both disabled and highly dependent on my husband, and he also has a daughter here. I just feel incredibly sad and lonely and like I'm not really living at all. I really love my husband and he's a great friend but that's not enough for me, I also need to be around friends to feel happy. I'm also now questioning the point in mortgaging up to the eyeballs just to stay in a city with none of my own family besides husband and no friends.
This is just a get-off-the-chest thing, not sure what I'm expecting to get out of this post really...