In a rut and turned for help in the wrong place

[Peterxpanx]

I won't go into details. But I've ended up with a major crush on someone who I only presume is attracted to me but I'm not sure. Nothing big has happened between us. A couple of flirtatious moments and eye contact.

I am living with my children's dad although we are not really anything anymore.

To deal with my hurt and hope that's been nagging away at me I've had a few psychic email readings done.

3 of them said he likes me and they see him reaching out.

Then one said he has bad boy vibes.

But today I stupidly got another and she's scared me. She has said I'll fall pregnant without a doubt in the next year. She said it is likely this man. But because it's the cup of cards or something in reverse it means he will be bad for me and she sees us shaking hands and walking away. I'll possibly have his baby and then he will turn out to be a disappointment . She said my current relationship is also dead. But not to worry because in 6 years I'll get engaged to a third man.

I know I'm a full on stupid idiot. But I've got nobody to talk too. I'm really struggling with my emotions right now. I just feel as a loss. I need to get over this man. I need to forget him but how?

I don't mean to sound stupid but it's literally hurting inside to realise I've been so silly and that life isn't going to improve romantically for a long time.

Also I don't want more children. Let alone with someone who won't be in my life properly. I don't know if any of them are real. But I am now n the wiser

Please someone be kind to me. I need someone to talk too.

You aren’t stupid, you are just a bit down and lonely. Possibly none of these readings are correct.
Can you/do you want to split from your children’s dad? Not because a reading says it’s dead, but if you think it is? Maybe freeing yourself from one area of your life, spend some time deciding what you really want and then begin again when you are ready.
Good luck.

Also I don't want more children. Let alone with someone who won't be in my life properly.

Then don't. You are in control of your future.

I can't even explain how i feel. It's so hard. I just didn't expect this to happen.

We don't do the things couples do. I am lonely. Bored. Etc. I think he is too. We've talked but not alot changes. We just do our own thing now and look after the kids.

It's like I feel so desperate to know. I've even considered sticking my number on the wall for him to find when he goes to work. But I can't really because his mates will likely find it! Plus I can't really go approaching him until I know he's available and interested.

The whole things crazy and has got out of hand. I just miss feeling in love and feeling connected. This is the worst feeling in the world.

It sounds stupid but the readings have all made me look at it from different angles. I keep thinking am I really that capable of getting involved with a man who could turn out to be awful when I was trying to find someone better. Let alone get pregnant and be left alone.

How do I move on and enjoy my life crush free? It's just horrible now.