First time poster here, just feel that I have to write my feelings down. I am the life and soul of our family, chief organiser, the person everyone comes to for fun and ideas. At work I am told that I glue everyone together and keep everything running smoothly, every office needs one of me apparently. I have great friends but haven't been able to see them much in the last few weeks. I have 2 adult children and a teen that count on me for everything as my husband works away. I'm always told that it looks like we're having so much fun, our life is perfect and I've nothing to complain about but in reality I feel like I'm watching all this through a window. I actually feel unwanted, unloved and not needed. Getting up is a struggle and I'm finding myself thinking of ways out. I don't know what to do....