I have today finally given up exclusively express breastfeeding my gorgeous little baby boy, after almost 3 months. He was not able to latch properly after some complications in the hospital after birth and we never got there. We tried everything we could- tongue tie snipped, lactation consultants, breastfeeding counsellor, nipple shields, but he just never got the hang of it, and I felt I couldn't keep going with the constant pumping and feeding regime as it has taken its toll. He is going to be formula fed from now on. I had got my head around winding down but then today was the first day he had no breast milk and I had a massive crash in my emotions. I just felt so sad and tearful that I couldn't fulfil my role in feeding my little boy. This evening I felt so sorry for him when I looked at him sleeping bless him. I know he won't know any different. I just feel so sad and wish I could have looked after him and taken care of his needs as his mum in this way.