Any other nhs staff just broken

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Hi- I'm a nurse who redeployed during Covid... I Spent so many hours trying to relearn skills I had 20 years ago.

I did what I could do and then came back to my normal job to face a back log... so we have focused on that.. now facing redeployment again but I'm broken and just can't do it again

my family life is in tatters as I struggle to parent kids who not only had to adjust to me working different hours but old enough to be scared of what I was doing..

I'm broken, fatigued and exhausted and just can't cope anymore.. ..

Can any nhs relate or offer strategies to help...

Yes. I’m absolutely dreading it! I was also redeployed in the first wave and also had to try and maintain a service that was closed down temporarily, leaving patients without support in a time when it was needed more than ever. We’ve only just got back to some sort of normality and the thought of having to do it again makes me feel sick.

And I’m angry. Angry with the Trust for not considering the impact of redeployment on us or our patients, angry at the government for their poor handling of things and angry at anyone who thought they were above the rules.

www.mumsnet.com/Talk/coronavirus/4026357-nhsers-how-are-we-doing-feeling-calm-before-the-storm

Lots of similarly minded NHS staff, and lots of non NHS like me sending very much ❤

Yes, redeployed at the start too, just starting to back to my regular place of work and it looks like a second wave is looming. Very much in need of some rest now.

NHS clinician in mental health. The last 2 months or so have been the most horrendous of my 20yr+ career. ANd things getting worse by the day with no end in sight.
Totally exhausted and broken. And feel also like I'm failing my dc too (tweens and teens)at a time they need me to be calm and there for them

Yes.

Not covid related but i am terrified at what the future of maternity care holds. Staffing levels are abysmal and the system is failing.

Same.

I was redeployed to iTu during COVID. I have never been a ward nurse since being a student. We had our own ventilated and filtered patient to look after from day one and it was sink or swim for us and our patient.
It was the steepest learning curve of my life.
I’m proud of what we did and how we coped, but I and many, many of my colleagues don’t have the mental or physical strength to do this again. Especially so soon after the last wave.

We coped...just...had to provide the same service but with at least 25% of staff off shielding, or with anxiety(and some of them didn't even work during any of the covid period!), had hardly any leave, shielders just coming back but can't work in clinical areas, so still overworked, the thought of a 2nd wave is just horrendous

Inpatient mental health nurse here working with older people with serious mental health issues (dementia, schizophrenia etc). Mental health inpatient services were pretty much forgotten last lockdown, and no doubt will be this time again. We had some covid positive patients, none of whom had any capacity to understand social distancing, covid testing etc and were aggressive etc, which is a nightmare mix for both us and them, especially since the majority of our patients are over 70 with other health issues and high risk. One colleague passed away last month after contracting covid through work. I've been spat at and bitten. Coupled with dire staffing as half the team end up having to self-isolate every time they get a temperature etc, and staffing was pretty dire anyway.

Coupled with having 2 young kids who are potentially going to be sent home from nursery / school / childminder any time so our childcare plans could fail at a moments notice, I'm drained just thinking about the upcoming winter months.

I left in June. I was having panic attacks and suicidal ideation. It has been the best thing for my family. I still struggle with anxiety but it’s more manageable. Depressingly I’m only losing about £100 in real terms being on universal credits. It makes me sad that I could have spent more time with my kids and not got so sick if I had left nursing earlier.
I think there are a lot of professionals who were struggling before and are just broken now. You never get any thanks or recognition and the NHS is full of bullies. My heart goes out to anyone still working in it.

Not quite broken.... yet....but some colleagues are.
We weren't redeployed but we're an essential community service. Every day now involves doing some sort of social work, to plug gaps left by closed down services & the fact that patients are lonely and not coping.

Social distancing in the office has gone to new levels of paranoia now. The concern feels more like it's around teams being unable to function if staff are away self-isolating, rather than concern for staff well-being.

I'm fed up with working late & then being even later getting away because the desk & equipment & door handles have to be wiped down before leaving.

Meanwhile, we're expected to keep updated with CPD & mandatory training, & to come up with ideas for improving practice.

I feel sorry for people who have had a less than satisfactory NHS service, because I've had first hand experience of that. I am definitely not a hero either, & hated all the clapping & rainbows. Other keyworkers are just as important. But I get a bit fed up with the NHS-bashing sometimes. There are days I'd rather stay in bed.

Thank you... it helped last night to read your messages and for anyone who feels the same...

I noticed the similar thread so will leave this one rather than have lots of the same topic...

Ok... onwards, upwards and love to all