This is my husbands and mines fifth and last child. We always wanted a big family and this baby was very much planned. From the moment I found out I was pregnant though I just felt sad. I had extreme morning sickness for 10 weeks and then got through that. Things were starting to look brighter and I started trying to feel connected to baby only to be told this week at 14 weeks I have complete placenta previa that may or may not resolve. So now I am terrified. I have never had a c section as all my other babies were natural birth center deliveries. I feel like I have no control over what is happening to me or this baby. I feel so disconnected from this pregnancy when people ask me about the pregnancy or baby I literally feel sick and hate talking about it. I’m just completely miserable at this point no matter how hard I try to pull out of it. How can I feel happier and less terrified and disconnected? I want this pregnancy to be my best yet since it’s the last time I get to do this.