Awaiting surgery- hand hold please

[chestnutbear]

Awaiting to have my right Fallopian tube removed due to ectopic.

I am emotionally drained. I went for a dating scan yesterday due to falling on mini pill.

They saw nothing in my uterus but a little something by my ovary.

I had bloods and was told to come in for more on Sunday but today I felt so dizzy and really had shoulder tip pain that I've come back into early pregnancy unit.

Had another scan and I'm now bleeding internally. So I'm waiting to have my surgery either later on or tomorrow.

I'm in bits. My partner can't visit obviously so I just feel so so alone and scared.

I am petrified of dying, so the surgery is making me so so anxious.

My little boy is with my parents now for the weekend and I worry I won't make it through the surgery due to complications. Crazy I know but I have such bad anxiety.

I've had the cannula put in, can't eat obviously now but starving! Had some pain killers. Just waiting now.

I really hope we get to conceive in the future, this also worries me so much, I have endometriosis. So chances are lower anyway xxx

Sorry to hear you're going through this. You're in the best place and it's good they've identified it early. Before you know it you'll be waking up from surgery and eating toast.

I went through the same 9 years ago and went on to conceive ds the following year.

Ps. I found the cannula insertion the worst part of it all x

So sorry to hear this. Must be very tough to go through it without anyone with you in hospital. Such a shock to loose a pregnancy.

I’ve had multiple miscarriages and endo surgeries too. I find it really scary but the worst bit is waiting and going to the surgery room, then next thing you know you wake in recovery.

Sending you support for your recovery. It’s a big emotional and physical trauma. Take it step by step. Best of luck xxx

Thank you so much. All gowned up and ready. Should be 6.30pm if no emergencies come through xx

I'll be thinking of you this evening x