To feel I'll be left behind

[Fruitsaladyuckyyucky]

I've got a few health issues going on. They have limited me to an extent. I am currently going to do the school runs in the car as oh drives and my oh is doing them too. Lockdown has made things worse for me. I have started realising lately how lonely I feel. I was happy before lockdown. I did the school runs. I chatted to the mums. I met my best friend to walk to the school everyday. Met two other mums at the gates who have become mums I message and chat to at the school. I had my partner. My kids. My house. I popped to see my mum and dad. We went out at the weekends. We went to the local playareas with the kids and drank coffee whilst they ran about.

Since lockdown has happened all that stopped. I've ended up with neck aches and headaches ontop of vitamin deficiencies. I'm just feeling weak all the time and I'm not feeling great this week as I've got a trapped nerve in my shoulder and neck. Spent most of it wobbly and dizzy.

I've told my family how I'm feeling only for them to try fix me instantly. Orange juice, long walks with my trapped nerve should apparently be done. I need to push myself and walk loads. My sister keeps asking me what I'm up too. I keep reminding her that since Saturday I've been trying to do stretches, rest and get rid of this horrible nerve! Then she tells me to go take the kids for a walk after school to a park a mole away. Told me to find a bench if I'm going to pass out!

Everyone's opinions are making me think. Am I really that bad? My two friends from school are up and about. Popping to the gym. Going into town for food. Shopping. Taking the kids out to zoos. I'm walking around looking for rocks with my kids and then going home for the rest of the day because I'm shattered.

I mean, that sounds completely terrible to me if you aren't recovering from an illness and don't have any underlying health problems that you know of like a heart problem or being extremely underweight or overweight and/or unfit.

Feeling weak, wobbly and dizzy all the time and getting so shattered when you have a gentle rock-spotting walk with the kids that you have to rest for the rest of the day would signal a health emergency for me - the only times I have ever felt that way was when (a) I was heavily pregnant and my blood pressure was all over the place and (b) I was recovering from double pneumonia and pleurisy that landed me in hospital for two weeks a few years ago and had post viral fatigue for months. I'm in my late 30s and not particularly any sort of an athlete but on a daily basis I can walk or cycle for hours on the flat, swim (slowly) for an hour, run up the stairs without getting dizzy, not worry about passing out on a walk.

I'd be calling the GP asap if I were you. Are your vitamin deficiencies self-diagnosed? Is it possible you had a virus (covid?!) and now have post-viral fatigue?

I’m not really clear what your health issues are, and whether you are getting treatment for them?

But you’re clearly not managing to live a full life, if you imagine what a working day looks like for most people. Or a day with small children at home.

Hope you manage to get on top of it all. Could some of it be stress? I am exhausted when stressed.

I've got iron issues. Vitamin D issues. Vitamin b12. Fibroids. All diagnosed. Then I have neck issues. Heavy periods. So i have things like breathlessness. Nausea. Headaches. Weak. Blurry vision. All got worse over lockdown.

Before lockdown I was walking and doing everything but still not feeling on top form.

In a rut and trying so hard to get out of it. I get my iron up then I bleed. It's a viscous circle. Awaiting to be refered but covid has created issues there.