Post Natal Depression

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I don’t really know what to say or what to expect from this, but someone I know told me to try this page out because I’ve been struggling recently. I hate to admit how I’ve been feeling because I feel like I’m the horriblist person in the world, but i get irritable and snap at my baby, sometimes I can’t even bear to his cry or be around him and make others feed him or take care of him, but then I hate feeling like that because I want to do it all but I can’t budge this feeling and I get in rut and get so emotional. I just wondered if someone is going through this and what to do to help me?

Hi,

I'm so sorry you're feeling the way you are. I've been there and know how awful it is. How old is your DC? Have you reached out for any help from your GP or health visitor at all?

Sorry you're going through this. You're not horrible. I've been where you are now and it was horrendous, the worst thing I've been through but it really does get better. I got better and haven't looked back.

Are you getting any help for it?

Not currently, it’s taken me a while to accept I’m actually going through this and it wasn’t just a bad day situation. It’s been really hard to accept it and I don’t quite know how to tell my partner or mum (if they don’t already know or picked up on it)

I guess I’m just scared they might think I’m unfit to be a mum and that’s the last thing I want, I adore my boy but I just can’t get rid of this feeling.
I even get anxious to leave the house and get in a right state before leaving

My baby is 7 months old currently

Don't beat yourself up over anything. My DD2 was around a year old before I finally admitted I had a problem. The prompt for me was a friend who'd I'd only known for a few months asking me if I was ok. She had suffered with PND and recognised it in me. I think I was in denial until then. There's nothing to be ashamed of at all. In the end I spoke to my GP who was incredibly understanding and I started taking AD's. They've really helped me get myself straight. I was fixating on things which weren't healthy and taking the AD's seems to have stopped me being able to do that. I'm in a much better place now but I'm not numb. I'm perfectly capable of feeling emotions but my emotions are more rational now.

Having a young child is hard work - my two are 5 and 2 now - but I absolutely remember the slog when they're very little. It's very full on especially when they're so wholly dependent on you.

Don't be afraid to reach out for help wherever you might find it - what you're going through isn't uncommon and there is help available.

I'm so sorry you're suffering , I had PND also. I can't really think of the best advice at the moment. Looking back I can see that was I wonderful mother, although at the time I didn't feel it so I understand your thoughts. Talking and opening up really did help me come through it. Please chat to your Dr or Hv, and see what options help and advice they can give.

I was on AD’s during my pregnancy and came off of them because I felt so much better in myself and the I felt fine still after giving birth but now it’s taken it’s toll on me, I wouldn’t ever go back on them now though.
Im going to get some help tomorrow and see what happens from there

I’m finding it very difficult to talk to someone about my situation though.