This is prob going to be a confusing mess as just need to get it out.
I feel in a constant state of panic at the moment. Pre covid I was doing really well as a tutor in a creative field (musical) , it was all going really well and I was making good money. I have three dcs so it worked well as they are all pretty young and I have to cover all the pick ups and hours outside school and nursery.
This year obviously my business was massively hit as works way better on a face to face basis. Also none of my kids were in school or childcare etc. I’ve a degree and masters but it’s very much in this area.
This year has been a total nightmare for me career wise and I’ve become really down .
The dcs are all finished at different times now, my youngest is finished v v early and there are now no add on hours. In my country it’s extremely difficult to find childminders etc and for three children it’s 15 euros per hour and we simply can’t afford it .
There are very few jobs also in schools here teaching my subject and in general. My dh is very supportive, has a great job etc but the fact is his is priority, is permanent, makes way more. He hadn’t ever held me back etc.
I’ve been thinking of doing other courses ( I did a sna course a while ago but again in my country it’s extremely difficult to get these jobs).
I just panic so much , I’m 36 and I’ve worked since I was young and I definitely feel like my business won’t pick up anytime soon, I’m not being negative , I’ve lost thousands in income.. Also and I guess it’s obvious I can’t work with my kids at home and already I’ve had one at home as they weren’t 100 percent and prior to this they were off 6 months.
I just get down when I hear people say it’s so important for women to work ( I agree and I was around 30+ hours a week) but now feel so despondent. Can anyone relate or thinking of retraining. I wouldn’t know where to start, I don’t have very much time and feel old ....