Should I bother doing this or not?...

[OhCrapOhDear]

Wasn’t sure where to put this so, sod it, it shall go here.

I’m at a loss. My youngest is about to start school and I have no job. No qualifications as such (though I consider myself to be fairly intelligent, ish. Ha!)
After giving my all to family life the past few years, I want to do something for me. I need some kind of future.

After buying a house 3 years ago, I became engrossed in the whole process.
I’ve looked up courses for becoming a conveyancer. But would I be daft to jump head first into it? I’ve looked at the job market in my area for that kind of work and there’s nothing. Is there any point? Who would hire me when I’m mid thirties with a young family? And no experience in anything other than child rearing for the last few years.
Aargh. What do I do?

@katmarie what a kind post, thank you. I agree that I’ve essentially decided I’ve failed before I’ve even started. Believe me, I want to succeed. I’m just not sure how!
In regards to my OH. He’s a wonderful dad. But it’s just not possible for him to be as hands on with the kids as I am. He works very long hours and there is no way I could earn what he does. He’s out of the house around 5am and doesn’t get back till gone 6pm so naturally most of the childcare falls to me. I know in the land of MN I should be equal to him but in reality, he pays the mortgage. Without his wage we wouldn’t have the life we do. So anything I do needs to work around the kids. As they get older I’m open to the idea of after school clubs and so on but for the moment I need to work around him.

@thesandwich I definitely need to work on my confidence. Deep down I know I can do anything I set my mind to. But the logistics of family life and picking up my self esteem is another matter.

Maybe throwing myself into a course and hoping for a decent job at the end of it is unrealistic atm?

Start small. Go for small wins to build your confidence. Break things down into small steps ie
Research volunteering- do- it website/ local volunteering hub
Look at on line courses- choose something short, a few hours over 3-4 weeks just to try it as it will all be new.
And celebrate each win!
You can do this. And I guarantee that just starting to make small steps will snowball and take you in a direction you’d never thought of.

Try something like this! Free and a good intro
www.futurelearn.com/courses/writing-applications
No pressure or costs!