Dh has a cough/cold at the moment, trying to get to sleep last night through the snoring and grunting and he starts making a strange wheezing/rattling noise. I suddenly had a very vivid flash back out of the blue of the day my mother died (nearly 20 years ago when I was 13) have never experienced anything like it before but the noise he was making in his sleep was so similar to the rattling noise she was making as she passed away, it was so vivid I almost felt as if I was back in the room where she died, I was present when it happened. Well I had complete meltdown, crying, sobbing which eventually turns into a panic attack as I thought I couldn't breathe. I never react like this, don't suffer with any form of anxiety/depression, not prone to out bursts of emotion etc so this random episode has really frightened me.
I've had lots of other traumatic events in my life, also lost my father 10 years ago after watching him attempted to be resuscitated, the DCs have had many medical issues between them involving intensive care stays and prepare yourself for the worst situations. I've never had any sort of flashbacks from anything like this.
I guess I'm just concerned how this has come back to my so suddenly and so vividly after nearly 20 years? Is it because subconsciously the anniversary of her passing is coming up? Is there any way I can stop this happening in the future?