My self esteem is so low and I dont know what to do.

[Mrslafayette]

Feel utterly shit. I'm trying to lose weight but am crap at it. No willpower, eating cheers me up. Only thing that does. No get up and go to do any exercise. Am also very lazy. I hate everything about myself. I hate how I look. I have no interests. I dont do anything for myself. I feel useless, stupid and crap.

I have a good job that I like, currently working from home, two amazing children, lots of friends, a nice husband! But given the option I would just stay in bed all day and cry. I'm on anti depressants already.

Too much pressure on being happy, it’s a tall order really

Happiness only comes to you at completely unexpected moments, when you’re too busy to even think about it, and you have happiness as a sudden realisation . It can’t be chased, and you can’t guilt yourself into feeling it.

Try to be kind to yourself in the way you talk about yourself in your thoughts, and try not to think too much about how you look or how big or small you are. Focus on activities that make you feel good (cooking? Going for a walk? Doing a sport or hobby? Something that you can lose yourself in)

I recently listened to the free "Tame your inner critic" podcast on Audible. It's an encouraging reminder about self compassion and catching those self hating thoughts we can get caught up in. I enjoyed it and it stayed with me.