I really hate crying but..

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I've lost my parents and my only sibling within the last 12 months. I'm truly heartbroken.

I have the best husband, friends, But my own family has gone. I feel so low. Like life is over really..how I wish I could turn back the clock.

To make matters worse my youngest flew the nest this week.

OP all I can say to you is to get through each day the best you can. It will become less painful. You will find a way of dealing with the loss, and living with it.

Really sorry to hear this. Having so many die within a short space of time must be devastating.
I lost my parents over a period of 2 years and know how sad that is. I had the comfort that they had good lives and, at the time of their death, they were ill and ready to leave. I don't know if that is the same with you. I have no siblings so can't imagine what that is like. That must be so much harder to take.
I've found comfort in always celebrating my parents' birthdays. Mum loved tea and cake so we always have an afternoon tea party on her birthday. Dad loved being outdoors so we celebrate with a barbeque. I like to include them in conversation with my family so we don't forget what they were like. I remember dad's bad jokes, tell stories of my childhood or things that my girls would remember.
Don't feel bad about crying. It shows how special they all were to you and is a tribute to your relationship. Allow yourself time to grieve, it will do you good. Take things slowly, it will take time but you will learn to cope with this.
Be kind to yourself, it sounds like you have good friends and family to talk to them if you can. Let them know how you feel and they should be able to support you.

I'm so sorry.

You are not alone in this. I know someone in a very similar situation. It's hard. Really fucking hard. But you'll get through this.

But please let yourself cry. Crying is a really useful release. It has been shown to be an outlet for stress hormones. If you need to cry, cry. Let it out.

Be patient with yourself. Allow yourself whatever time it takes for things to get easier. People around you might forget sometimes, as time moves on, but they'll understand. Just let them know what's going on for you.