I’m having a dreadful time. Had second by emcs recently first was also emcs. That plus my age 38 nearly 39 and I’m worried that’s it for me.
We had planned to have another close to our second but I feel like the 2 rushed and quite traumatic emcs will have damaged me internally and I’m so so devastated
The surgeons said both times it went ok as well as it could but I’m just quite upset as I feel like something will be wrong that our plans won’t work out.
I should be grateful for what I have I think though we had planned things out, the pushchair we got this time we got one we can add another seat to things like that, our car, the house etc it’s all set up for the plans we had. Things like work as well obviously we wanted to be organised
I should be grateful for what I’ve got I’m rambling on. I dont even think I’m over the birth physically and I need to focus on my health but my mind as well
I’m just so sad I don’t know what to do with the things the baby will grow out of we were going to keep everything obviously now I think is that just going to make things worse in case we can’t use them ever again.
Please be gentle I’m feeling so fragile. I know I’m lucky with what I have already