Feeling let down :(

[MamofCandJ]

Back at the start of the year, I finally landed my dream job as a teaching assistant, I feel so lucky to be in this line of work after lots of hard work to get here. I took the job on the basis that I'd have family help with childcare, and only need to use a childminder one day a week. All fine. Until one by one, my childcare arrangements have fallen through, to the point where I'm now going to have to use the childminder 5 days a week, plus somehow get my eldest to and from school when breakfast club and after school clubs cannot run for the foreseeable future due to Covid.
It's looking increasingly likely I might not be able to continue my job, which I'm heartbroken at the thought of. I feel so helpless and dispensable. Not really sure why I wrote this thread other than to vent really, I know they're my children so my responsibility ultimately. Not sure if anyone will even get to the end of this but if you do thanks for listening. I'm just so sad

Is your childminder able to do school drop offs and pick ups?

She might possibly be able to do some drop offs but not pick ups, but to be honest due to my low wage and having to pay for 5 full days for my youngest it would end up where I'd be paying to go to work. Even with tax free childcare. It's just a rubbish situation

Are you a single parent?

Because childcare cost is shared between you and your career is important too

No I'm not a single parent but my husbands wage isn't excellent either unfortunately so by the time the bills are paid out of his there isn't enough left to make a difference to the childcare fees. He was furloughed during lockdown which I know millions of people were but that had a big impact on our finances, plus his workplace still haven't fully opened yet so we've lost about £40 a week, which doesn't sound a lot but makes a big difference