A few days ago a lady contacted me via Facebook and told me she had a message for me. She said it was from my Dad and that she didn’t want payment - she just needed to pass the message on.
Now I like to get my tarot read and thought it would be like that. So I accepted and figured it was something to do, it’s free and a bit of a novelty. I felt she’d probably say something generic like ‘your dad has found peace’ or he wants to say he loves you.
It was a pretty usual reading. Lots of telling me things I already know etc. Some stuff she did get right that I haven’t disclosed to anyone before but nothing groundbreaking.
Then she got to my dad. My dad ended his life last year, it’s a very sensitive subject for obvious reasons. Still I have come out the end of a hard year and allowed her to talk about him. I had not disclosed on Facebook how dad died. Lots of people assumed he was ill and I never found it necessary to mention it publicly.
She said things that I found really upsetting and it all brought back lots of distressing thoughts and feelings. She said that he felt he was worthless, and the world would be better off with out him. That he felt very dark and basically unloved.
Dad and I had a rocky relationship so I was visibly upset at this point (it was a video call) she mentioned hard parts of my life - my parents splitting, my dads alcohol problems etc. She said he regretted his decision to end his life and now hangs around me feeling uninvited to connect.
I ended the call in floods of tears, she asked if I had any questions but I actually couldn’t speak I was so upset and have spent the day feeling emotional and lost.
Should I message her and tell her how she’s made me feel?
Should I just chalk it down to her making rubbish up? I know mumsnet tends to be anti-woo ....but any clairvoyant types who can offer some reassurance ?
Thankyou