If it's possible to have one of these, I feel like I'm having one. Have NC as I feel ashamed and pathetic. I'm 32.
It all started a few weeks ago when I listened to a noughties Spotify playlist and all these songs came up that I remember from my late teens. They just triggered this very deep sadness in me.
I feel very ungrateful. I have a kind and loving husband whom I love and a happy and healthy 5 year old DD. But I feel so flat - like there is nothing new or exciting to look forward to. I've felt a bit like this for a while but that playlist made it worse. I'm retraining career wise to do something I enjoy but it doesn't seem to have helped.
We are stuck in a very small flat which has been on the market for months now (covid means everyone now wants a garden and gardenless flats aren't selling at all in my bit of London right now). I have been with dh who is wfh as well as me day in day out since March now. I am busy with studying and also working in a stressful job.
I realise how ungrateful I sound especially at the moment when the world is turning to shit but I hate how flat I feel. My half sister aged 21 has just got into a new relationship and I just feel jealous of her - I so miss the excitement and promise of a new relationship. Even though my DH and I have a wonderful marriage.
Has anyone felt like this at this age? I feel so sad.