Are there just some people in life who are not liked at all?

[dislikable]

Through no real fault of their own?

Just disliked and judged badly ?

I’m really struggling with this currently. Have had multiple issues from birth. It’s a theme that I have never been liked and I cannot work out why I’m constantly a manly song my past, my actions and everything I say and do and thinking what do I need to change or is it just something that happens ?

I had a bad childhood my mother tells me the birth was horrific. She said that the nurse told her in hospital I would make her life a misery if she picked me up each time I cried or gave in to me that I was ‘demanding’

Through childhood she wasn’t the nicest (a lot of emotional abuse)
At nursery I remember a couple of the people there would shout at me and punish me for the smallest things. I was always scared.
At school I had few friends. As I got older I was called weird and people would describe me as ‘nasty and unkind’ when I’d never really even spoken to them it’s like it was assumed.

Issues in adult life it’s very rare anyone naturally likes me and I’ve had malicious things said against me totally unfounded.
I’ve been to therapy to try and unlock myself am I subconsciously doing something wrong ?
My therapist wondered if my early life experiences have made me unapproachable and it’s not that I’m doing anything more giving off something as I was virtually rejected by my mother so others pick up on something

I’ve pulled all art every conversation I have and I don’t know what I’m doing wrong.
In my life I’ve literally had less than 10 people who actually like me genuinely and I don’t know what to do ?

Is it just possible that some people come across badly by mistake and are not likeable ?

To the OP. I am exactly like you. I also had a mother who was emotional neglectful. She would leave me to cry by myself for hours as a newborn. She is one of those people who believes that babies are naughty and telling them off is how to deal with them. I was told off for everything and anything. I am the oldest and basically left to my own devices from the age of 2. The only contact my mum would have with me was to tell me off. She still calls me "useless", "pathetic" and "hopeless" as "jokes" - I am 45 with a husband, child and successful career.

Anyway, I find it impossible to make friends. The only friends I have ever made is while drinking. As a result I have a fucked relationship with alcohol as that it the only time I can relate to people normally.

I have no idea how to deal with this alienation. Only that I share your pain of feeling trapped in a mind/body of someone desperately lonely for friendship but unable to reach out and form relationships.

I sometimes think about going to a therapist, but I can't admit the awful things that I have done in my past (me and husband have a rocky relationship as I married a copy of my mother).

I hope that you manage somehow