Please help me feel less like a failure.

[Failingfeeling]

I’ve changed my user name for this as I don’t want to be identified.

After years of hidden ptsd/ anxiety, I’ve gone on mediation. I had lots of therapy first to treat the cause which was very effective and then started fluoxetine to help with the symptoms of anxiety.
It has helped and my gp says I should take it for at least a year.
The problem is I feel like such a failure and a terrible person that I let myself get to this point and feel the medication is a further sign I’ve failed. I feel I’ve let my dc down because I couldn’t manage without medication and even though it was anxiety and trauma that I was treated for, I now feel very down that I’ve had to take medication. I also feel angry with the people who caused the trauma in my adult life that turned my world upside down. I feel hopeless even though I’m loads better.
Please help me find some perspective

If your leg was broken, youd need to use a cast and a crutch for as long as the doctor tells you. This is no different OP. Your doctor wants you on this medication in order to help you heal.

You are not letting your DC down by taking it, you are taking it so you can get better and stronger for you and them. Be kind to yourself.

By taking the medication you are improving your own quality of life and that of your children, you haven't let them down at all.

I know it seems horrible to have to rely on the medication but it will help long term while you address the underlying causes.

I know you’re both right but I feel like I’m not me any more and feel ashamed that I can only cope with my anxiety whilst medicated. I’m just so fed up of being anxious and the medication has helped which is why I’ve persevered even though it’s made me feel like a failure.

I didn’t want to need medication