It would seem that me not returning to my pre lockdown level of socialising is becoming an issue for my local friends who are asking to know when I will go hang with them again.
It's been a rough time for my family with my eldest son being very unwell and hospitalised. I'm also self employed and while my business can be resurrected hopefully I've lost a lot of business. The result is I'm not feeling very peopley and feel quite low mood but not desperately so.
I declined an invite to a bbq which happened yesterday and i know that my absence is a hot topic. Pre lockdown I would have been there with bells on. I think the time apart has allowed me to reevaluate some of the friendships too. I'm struggling a bit so don't feel particularly like partying.
I think there's an assumption that I'm terrified of coronavirus and that they want to coax me out again. But it feels like pressure and I'm just not feeling very peopley.
I just wondered if anybody else is experiencing this? And also how I avoid it becoming a big issue, offending them or me becoming some sort of project for them? Like the longer I avoid it the bigger a deal it will become.
Any advice?