Hi everyone, i need help unscrambling my thoughts and hope there is straight advice out there.
Due to covid 19 and the lock down, I've really been thinking more and seeing patterns in my life that are so not right but I'm stuck. My partner is a key worker so his life stayed very active while I stayed with 2 girls, 9 and 2. My biggest bug bare is that regardless of how tired I became mentally I was "overreacting and over thinking" yet while he sits every night on xbox or most of the day on his days off on xbox... Im the childish one 👌. Lately I've been trying to find my passion again thru hobbies and when I decided I wanted to make this a business but don't have the time he couldn't understand and says I have plenty of time... I wish that was the case, yes I could stay up until 3 in the morning painting but I'd have to be up for 6.30 to look after 2 hyperactive girls non stop till 8 pm... I don't see that working for my mental health. I'm so down and wish I could get a rey of light idea but I just feel like I want to get away from it all. I need a time out but the guilt trip that would follow is unreal. Can anyone help me see the wood thru the trees!