As above really. My mum is severely ill with anxiety, is in a psychiatric ward at the moment. Been there about 10 days, is 5 days in to new medication.
She has some physical issues they haven't got to the bottom of either, she had to have a catheter fitted a few weeks ago and has bowel issues.
She's very, very sad and scared, bored and lonely. Because of covid we are only allowed a half hour visit a day (despite no new cases here for weeks) and I cannot switch off from thinking and worrying about her every other minute.
It's like I can't enjoy anything because in the back of my mind I know she is somewhere else and sad. I almost feel resentful when I see other people with their parents annoying the relaxing of lockdown. (The anxiety/breakdown are due to covid worries and lockdown.)
I do a very good job of being the positive, stoical one and visit her every day with my dad, and then come home and switch on a smile to the kids but I just don't know how to do this for the long haul.
I know I have to keep believing that she will get better but that it takes time, but it's just so hard.
Any words out there? I don't want to forget her or whatever but I just don't know how to do this.
If anyone has any positive stories of recovery from her position too I'd appreciate it 😂🙏