Handhold please. *Possible Trigger*

[SimplySteveRedux]

I'm posting this here as it is something my immediate family, and parents, don't know the details of.

I need a handhold, these feelings an endemic and eat away at me constantly. Even more today being a Sunday - as it was when I was 14. I was raped and sexually assaulted for around 60-90 minutes, and I just so worthless, what happened shameful (there are more details I could share but don't want the thread locking , I had zero support from my parent and could never tell them about, golden child sibling sees to that.

I'm full of emotion, but since the incident, and coupled with other childhood abuse, means that I cannot let any emotion out, it's like there's a glass wall in the way.

I've seem a counsellor but they just focused (partially, although I had 8 sessions) on my childhood family structure and wasn't interested in the sexual abuse, or my feelings towards myself - hate, worthless, useless, amongst others .....

Handhold here and sending you After lots of unhelpful counselling attempts, I had emdr for trauma (I paid to see a psychologist) and it changed my life. Maybe try a different therapist or type of therapy. Good luck xx

Oh I’m so sorry. Sounds like you’re having a really touch time. You've experienced a lot of trauma so it’s no wonder you feel the way you are feeling.

Oh lovely, handhold here too I'm not sure what resources you've got to do this, but I'd second looking into an alternative therapist if you can. From experience it's certainly worth trying to find a better fit for you personally. The right person will take the lead from you and listen when you say 'this is what I want to talk about'.

Oh gosh, so sorry this happened to you. You're not worthless. It would probably be helpful to find a new therapist to talk too, to focus on this abuse.

Do you have any friends you can talk to, or your gp?

Sending you strength and love 💐