firstly can I say that I know how lucky we are to have a roof over our heads. I really do. I feel horrible feeling sad about this when so many others have much worse things going on but I do feel sad and I can't help it. Please be kind.
We (dh and I) bought our 2 bedroom flat (one double, one single, no garden) in late 2015. We were not intending to have children yet as we were both still quite young but then I got pregnant accidentally and we had DS in 2016. It has been fine for us the past few years, we have nice parks nearby so haven't been bothered about a garden etc. But we have also been wanting more space and we definitely could not have 2 children here, so we decided to put the flat on the market. It went on literally just before lockdown and we had loads of interest. Then lockdown happened. Since it opened up again we've had very minimal viewings and the last 2 weeks they've tailed off completely. We have dropped the price. Everything is completely decluttered etc. Flats without gardens just don't seem to be budging at all.
I'm feeling so sad that we are now probably stuck here for the forseeable and we can't have another baby. We bought with a 10% deposit and thanks to brexit it's barely gone up in value at all since 2015 so we don't have loads of equity (we bought it for 350k and have 270k left on the mortgage). I'm feeling so miserable. Every time I see pictures of other people's homes it feels like I've been punched.
I know this is pathetic. But I can't stop.