Abortion can't stop thinking about it

[Greenphonegirl]

pregnant with my 2nd and was unplanned and very unexpected. Very happy with 1 and struggled throughout last pregnancy and first year with anxiety. Decided almost immediately to enquire about abortion went to the clinic and arranged for the abortion pills to be sent to me. I cannot stop thinking about it tho. I know its the right thing to do im not up to going through it again and the crippling anxiety and dh agrees but I cant help but think what if. Someone tell me its gets easier. Pill not arrived yet

Abortion, for many women, is difficult. I've had one recently and even though I knew it was a more sensible decision than having another child, I was and am full of 'what ifs'. Once you've taken the first pill, there's no going back and now my life has gone back to pre-pregnancy normal. I'm sad but I don't regret it.

Maybe you could seek some counselling before you actually take the pills?

If you are not sure, have you considered counselling and talk it through with your DH and someone else irl. It is such a big thing.

Trouble is I'm scared of talking it through with friends for fear of what they'll think. The bpas did offer an counselling line maybe I could call them first

Call Bpas, don’t take them unless your sure.

I've had an abortion and I remember feeling trapped between 2 very polarised camps. On the one hand, there were all these stories about women being glad for their abortion and very few regretting it, on the other, there were people who knew they could never possibly abort. I didn't identify with either, I just felt sad and conflicted. The reality has so many shades of grey.

I'd definitely recommend impartial counselling. It really is best to take other people's opinions out of this and just focus on you, your situation and your decision.

For me, it was a difficult time and the emotional crash after was hard. I felt sad, but I didn't regret it despite feeling sure I would.

OP how did it go? Did you get counselling?