This might turn out to be an essay...
I'm early 30s, married with 3 kids age 6 and under. I worked in a busy city prior to kids and then switched careers to one that would work around school hours, school holidays etc. When DC3 came along, for various reasons, I ended up not going back to my part time job to fully care for her. She is now 1.5 years old.
I've always felt like you can choose your outlook on life, choose to be happy, choose to make the best of whatever situation you're in, but I am feeling increasingly miserable.
I feel like I dont have a purpose beyond 'mum'. I feel so so so bored. I dont know if its lockdown making me feel this way and I'll get better as it eases, or if lockdown has made me realise I felt like this all along.
Me and DH live in the same town where we grew up. Our families are here, our friends are here, eldest DC is settled at school and I just want to run away. I've been looking at other countries and work/school possibilities abroad.
I felt like I was having a panic attack the other day, just thinking about us still being here in the same place in 30 years time. I dont know what to do 
Has anyone else felt like this? What helped or happened to change it? DH has suggested I have some therapy so I'm thinking about that. Just needed to vent about all this really.
Well done if you read this far!