How do you stop feeling guilty about everything?

[Bettercallgall]

I've name changed as I don't want this being linked with my other more outing posts.

I my daughter 15 was diagnosed and hospitalised with a severe mental illness a few weeks ago around the time I was due back to work. My work were very good about it. She was then released on a family based programme which means I have to watch her 24/7 and help with her recovery. My work couldn't understand why I couldn't leave her with someone else and come in. My dr then signed me off for two weeks. She is still having intense treatment and so my dr has now written another 3 weeks.

My problem is I'm feeling massively guilty for being signed off. I'm one of those people who never has a day off and even though I know it's stupid I can't help worrying about it. I'm also worrying myself stupid about how I can afford to take all this time off. I know this sounds ridiculous as my dd is the more important but I'm not sleeping as I feel so worried that I will lose my job or something bad will happen. I know I'm probably being ridiculous but does anyone else feel this way?

Difficult one. Our work defines us, especially if we're good at it. But your DD's wellbeing depends on you putting that part into a box. Never feel guilty about something you have no choice or control over.

@DisgraceToTheYChromosome thank you I know you're right it's just so difficult to change the must fo to work mentality. I think part of me is worried they will think I'm making it up to not have to come back. I haven't been in work since March. I've been working at home since then but still feel like I'm doing something wrong.

Does your job have continued professional development? If so, is work a) keeping you updated b) delaying it until you can do it IRL c) gone silent on it. C isn't good, do chsse them up. If CPD isn't necessary, how's the feedback?

I'm not really the best person to ask, because my industry means I have to be physically present. Also, I treat work as a big cashpoint: put in enough hours to hit 2k a month, then rotate to standby for a week.

I have no idea what CPD is. I'm a TA and I'm still getting emails about work but haven't heard anything else from them about me being signed off. As I say I've never had a day off at this job before so have no idea what is normal.

No news is good news then.