How can I not waste my life?

[beehivee]

I've Nc'd for this as I'm embarrassed

I'm 23(nearly 24), have two lovely children (4&2) and have an okay job but not a career type job for me (retail management for small chain) but have no savings at all. I have a constant dreaded fear that I'm wasting my life away and I'm so terrified that I'll turn round in 10 years and think that I've ruined my life. I love my husband but I don't love our relationship and he's very difficult to work with regarding making changes that require a lot of effort. I desperately want to be a nurse but see no feasible way of doing so (no family to help and husband has a physical disability which means he probably couldn't cope with me being on placement for days back to back with no respite). I'm okay looking facially and have long thick hair but I don't know if it looks awful (it's a few inches higher than my waist) and I only brush it so it's not styled. I am overweight (12 stone) but trying to change it. Please can anyone give me advice either in general or related to my situation? I'm so scared of ruining my one chance. Sorry for the ramble

You’re putting a lot of pressure on yourself thinking about all of that at once. You know what I though when I read your post...how great that you are so young when you had your children it means you still have plenty of time to do all the others things you want to do.

Maybe break down your goals into smaller chunks and decide one or two things you want to work on. Then you will see movement towards your goals even though it might be small steps. Your kids are still very young so it’s likely to get easier to look at things like nurse training when they’re both at school. Is there anything you could do to work towards that in the meantime though, maybe a few hours of volunteer work or a few hours working in a related job like care work.