Having a slightly rubbish day (of many) and decided that I really wanted a rant about my job. I thought maybe others would like to do the same without judgment or too many questions.
I have NC'ed so I can give details. I'm a transaction lawyer at a very big law firm.
I hate the hours and hours of drafting things from templates and inevitably finding out that the templates doesnt really do what I want and needs proper amendments anyway.
I hate the 3 hours-at-a-time calls with aggressive bankers and male partners talking over me when I am speaking.
I particularly detest the lunches (where I am usually the only woman in the room and still having to kiss the arse of aggressive and hostile middle-aged banker that actually doesnt really want to speak to me anyway).
I hate having to pretend i care about what is going on in the Financial Times.
I hate spending hours stressing over firm-wide training sessions that I am forced to give because hey, it's part of my job - who cares about my feelings or anxiety.
I hate the constant chasers for things that aren't important because someone else has decided they aren't busy and want to shift something off their desk, despite me being too busy to do it there and then.
I hate filling out daily timesheets with full naratives of what I have done all day (this is a widely detested part of being a lawyer).
I hate the aggression and hostility that the US firms insist on including in every email.
I am sick of all feedback being negative - good feedback is only provided in appraisals when HR are present (I'm good at my job - this isn't just me).
Most of all, I hate working for a stream of white, middle aged men who literally couldn't give a flying F--- if you have plans, commitments, issues or a personality - particularly in the evenings - and say things like "oh let's have a call at 9pm then" like it doesnt warrant discussion because, of course, their wife is a SAHM and they have nothing else in their lives other than work.
Phew - much better now. I'm sure someone will ask why i dont leave if i hate it so much, but honestly, it's never that simple. I have zero ideas on what else I would do and quite honestly the pay is so good it would be pretty damn hard to take the pay cut while I am still paying off debts and supporting family members.
Keen to hear yours!