My daughter is still 3 and a and a half he goes to nursery part time and before that we used to go to lots of playgroups and soft plays and play dates swimming and then play dates little friends with along the way over the first few years playgroups and baby groups. I found it incredibly difficult her growing up so quickly even though I got to spend a lot of time with her sometimes it feels like I haven't spent any time we do it always feel like I'm not appreciating her enough even though I'm always trying to do I always feel sad that x constantly disappearing behind me so fast where has the last 6-months gone where has the last year gone it all seems to Fly by too quickly and it's so hard when they're such a big part of your life I work in the evenings and my partner works in the day but I'm still dreading her going to school with seems like such a big scary change I think it's worth says me and my partner have had 3 miscarriages and had our daughter by IVF and we don't know if we can have anymore so it puts a lot of pressure on me trying to make the most of her constantly especially hard for everyone with the coronavirus at the moment but when I look back at all the pictures even though they feel sad I look back and think we've done a hell of a lot I take my daughter around the Olympic Park and all over London and the Museum of Childhood everyday I'm always trying to pack as much as I can but I still feel like that it's gone way too quick painful Eso and I haven't done things right have an appreciate it enough always feeling bad about it I guess I've put a lot of pressure on myself and school seems like a big change