Dealing with an injury that was due to another's negligence.

[AVeryBitterLemon]

No I don't work for a law firm, but I am someone who was injured in a workplace accident about 15 years ago. The injury doesn't sound especially terrible, but it required surgery, months of therapy to regain any movement as it resulted in nerve damage. I've had 15 years of Chronic pain and impairment to my arm that means that I've lost a lot of strength in it and I'm sometimes unable to use it much and sometimes I can't use it at all. It's getting worse, and it's affecting my sleep, my already poor mental health and I'm finding myself becoming very angry about it, even though I actually still have fond memories of my employers and feel no hate towards them, but I'm frustrated. I have other disabilities including damage to my other arm(not related) so when they both go it's "fun".

I know that I'm lucky compared to many as I wasn't left with more severe injuries and I can use my arm some of the time, also if it'd happened minutes before I'd have been killed, but the pain can be so severe that I've considered begging for amputation.

I know that there's little I can do now, but has anyone else experienced anger/frustration over an injury that was caused by someone else?

Much of the telling off I got on MN was around supposed greed and wanting money etc. But money does pay for physio and counselling. These things do help and the NHS is not going to provide it.
I used my compensation for private osteopathy, which really helped. I was able to buy some personal equipment that I can use at home.
The only thing my GP could offer was strong medication.

Exactly endofthelinefinally. People just don't realise the costs incurred. Plus I face having to retire early on a pension that is much reduced because I've lost so much earnings. It affects your whole financial future if you are off work for a long time. Fortunately my DH has a good job so we are not on the breadline or anything but even with my current income our household income is still less than two thirds of what it was pre incident because I was the higher earner. But I am just supposed to accept this? Because we aren't starving and haven't lost our house I am just supposed to put up with everything?
When I eventually do get my compensation it will be a substantial amount of money, though of course it won't all be mine. I will have to repay my employers for all the sick pay I received beyond SSP for a start. But I expect people will say I am lucky, like I am lucky not to be dead, lucky not to have lost a limb, lucky not to be brain injured, lucky not to be in a wheelchair, lucky to have recovered as much as I have.
I do appreciate all those things, but I don't feel lucky. My life, and that of my family, friends, colleagues, the other people at the kids clubs I volunteer at have all been irrevocably changed to varying degrees by the actions of a person who has been found guilty in a court of law. But its me that is serving the heavier sentence, and its probably a life sentence, with lots more painful surgery to look forward to...yay....
Its me who is under constant scrutiny and has been advised to "be careful" with my social media. Seen to be getting more active? Well she can't be that bad then she's putting it on for the compo." Seen to be staying at home feeling sad? "Well she's making no effort to help herself. She's trying to screw the system for more compo".
Its me that is still suffering, years later- physically, psychologically and financially. But I'm lucky, and I'm greedy to want to be able to give my kids something approaching the lifestyle they had before the incident. Hey, its ok, I'm not dead or on benefits, things could be worse. Suck it up Mrs A and think of other people's insurance premiums before your own selfish desires.