I think there is something seriously wrong with me

[SomethingIsNotRightWithMe]

This is going to sound completley crazy but here it goes.

I have suffered from depression and anxiety in the past. Over the past few weeks those feelings have returned and I have had two panic attacks this week when I was supposed to be working. Manager knows about this and has told me to log off (WFH) and rest for the remainder of the week.

But I feel different somehow. I can't seem to settle and I keep having weird thoughts. Like I keep thinking about people are out to get me or are watching me. I just feel so out of it. I can't really explain it but I feel like I really am losing it.

We have what we call mental health first aiders at work who my manager said I might like to speak to and while I can tell them about my panic attacks and anxiety I can't exactly tell them that I think people are watching me. They really will think I have lost it. I've even name changed for this becuse I don't even want it linked in to my regular NN.

I don't know what to do or what's wrong with me. I'm scared people will take me away .

I'm so sorry you feel this way. Can you speak to your Dr? Are you on any meds to help you

I think you should call your GP and say exactly what you have said here.

Will they not just think I am crazy?

Thinking people are watching you is not normal is it?

I am scared they will lock me away .

No, they won't think you're crazy. Please ring them. They are there to help you

Are you on any meds at the moment?

If you are they might just need a tweak, or possibly changing.

Hi OP, I’m a doctor (hospital not GP) and second the advice to get in touch with your GP ASAP

They won’t think your crazy at all, what you have is a symptom, possibly of your already diagnosed depression; and will be very much treatable. Good luck

Call your doctor, they won't think you're crazy, they won't lock you up.

I experienced something very similar to this 12 years ago, for me it was the start of a breakdown, I experienced it again 7 years later (following the birth of dc4 & after a stressful time & I just went in to crisis). Both times both GPs were excellent & made me feel safe & supported (different practices).

It sounds cliche writing recognising you have a problem is the biggest step but it is true.

Not on anything at the moment no.

OK will phone doctor.

Call the doctor! A doctor practically saved my life and he doesn’t even know it.

I went to a totally sane person with anxiety and panic attacks, to a completely different person! I still had panicked attacks and anxiety but I was also turning psychotic. I could actually feel myself loosing my mind, like it was packing it’s bags and walking out my life! Some of the things I thought was happening to me was completely crazy-I was petrified because how do you tell someone your turning crazy!!

Turned out to be some medication I was taking for my asthma! Something in it tipped my chemical balance I guess? Stopped all meds via the doctors advice and restarted one by one slowly to see what one was causing the side affect

Don’t worry if your not taking any meds, it could be a deficiency causing yours so still tell the doctor.

They won’t lock you up, it’s not like in the films.