I was made redundant last week. Obviously it’s not entirely unexpected. It’s just - I loved my job so much. It was at fintech start up, and full of lovely, progressive thinking people. Truly flexible in their approach to work/ life balance and very supportive about working during lockdown with three young children at home.
I’m trying to be resilient - I have to, we have three kids and a mortgage and debts. We HAVE to be ok. There’s tons of roles and I’ve applied for lots, updated my Cv, put out feelers to contacts.
I’m being put forward for a role and crossing my fingers I get an interview. But now I’m worried that having three children will go against me. I’m thinking they’ll go with someone that doesn’t behave the annoyance of children in the background. One is the wrong age group to go back, one is Reception but before redundancy, we had decided it was better for her to start back in September, and one is pre school age.
I feel so anxious and stressed, I just want to cry every day. DH is self employed and his business has taken a massive hit during lockdown. So he’s around to do most of the childcare but a) this means I am the main earner and I MUST find a new role ASAP and b) he does need the time and space to try and keep his business going, somehow.