I think I've got anxiety symptoms

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Hi. I have had on and off vitamin deficiencies in the last two years and low iron. So it's hard to tell what's causing what. But I have become aware of certain things happening to me now that always happen when I've got to leave the house to meet someone or do something at a set time. I was like it a year ago too. But my daughter started school and I think it cures me. It showed me I could be realiable and get the job done. Then in Feb my iron and vitamin D was really low. I felt really poorly.

Then. Lockdown happened. I've spent most of it battling my iron and vitamin D issues. But now I'm noticing a pattern in certain symptoms.

Today my partner's dad is coming over for the first time since lockdown. He's asked me to trim his hair. I said I will. He's nearly 80 and it's driving him mad. But since then I've felt on edge. I feel weak (which is the norm for me on bad days) but I feel nervous. I feel mildly naseous. I'm overthinking how long he will be here and how I can excuse myself if I feel light headed.

I am starting to notice this happening when my friend wants to meet for a distanced walk. I'll agree all enthusiastically. Then on the day my energy gets low. My body feels on edge and I can't relax and look forward to meeting her.

I rarely but sometimes wake in the night and feel really down and on edge too.

Alot of the time I'm absolutely fine. But it's creeping up on me everytime ive got to mix. I always end up feeling abit rubbish.

I did tell my Dr last year. She gave me can't card. I use rescue remedy myself. The Dr said it wasn't a good idea for me to Medicate. I do agree with her to a large extent as I think I'm ok alot of the time.

I just feel angry at myself. I don't know why it happens. But if it didn't I could be so much better. I actually like to see people and mix. I think it has stemmed from my iron Levels. The fear of passing out or going really weak when out is a reality for me when it's low.

Basically I don't know how to change my thought pattern. I never throw up so I don't know why I fear it. I think it's also embarrassment from the odd time I've go e weak in the street and had to confess to whoever I was with I didn't feel great.

Aghh anyone got any advice?

P.s we've all self isolated and not been in shops at all since lockdown. So partner's dad needs abit of company he's getting down. We plan to be in the garden.

I was diagnosed with PND and PNA after my daughter and it does sound similar especially the feeling weak and overthinking. However, I also had a vit D deficiency and had some symptoms with that to. I also cant take medication for my MH due to one particular side effect but I find that exercise really helps - sort of challenging my body so I can say to myself 'look, you walked 3 miles. You might feel a bit weak or out of it but you walked all that way anyway'. I bought an acupressure mat and do short guided meditations to as I find I dont get the symptoms then when I'm relaxed. Have you tried therapy to unpack what might be underneath these feelings for you? Mine came from birth trauma feel let down by DH and family during an awful time. It has helped me access the right support. I try to eat well, move, do small and enjoyable things like having a glass of wine in the garden or focused time with my daughter. It all helps.

Thanks for your fast reply. I'm sorry you have been through some struggles since having your baby. I think I slowly started to get it on and off from being pregnant with my second baby. The anxiety of having a toddler and morning sickness was over whelming. I've not had therapy or anything. Tbh ive kept alot of my feelings in my own head and figured my body is just failing me. But it's hard to know what's causing what now.

I've got an accupressure mat. I agree it's relaxing. Do you listen to music etc then? I will try and look into that. I've been for a walk this morning to try kill time. I feel like the feelings are going to win and ruin my day again. I hate it because I feel like u want company and conversation but. Always sat there feeling wobbly or sick.

With the acupressure mat, I use it whilst listening to guided meditation of youtube which I appreciate sounds a bit wankey but it really helps. Anything that is for anxiety, self acceptance, confidence etc is a great choice. I had to accept through therapy the impact of stress on the body. The book 'the body keeps the score' is great for this and it also formed part of my individual and group work. I felt that I was expected to 'do it all' and just push down my feelings including letting everyone treat me like shit despite me having had c section and a newborn in special care. I have had to relearn that I matter to and set some boundaries but I still get symptoms.