Anyone just fucking up one thing after another at the moment?

[Standstilling]

I have spent lockdown getting more and more absent minded and just fucking up one thing after another. Today I have messed up something else at work - careless error, can’t seem to concentrate, feeling stressed and worried about my mistakes then makes it worse.

I know it will pass and it’s nothing monumental that can’t be put right but it’s just not like me. Or maybe I have to accept that I am now the sort of person who makes mistake after mistake. I am so fucking angry with myself.

Wow - good day for me to read this post. I read an email from my DC's school, saw I needed to respond and then totally forgot to do so. Result? My DS can't start back on Monday when everyone else does. Hopefully just a week's delay. It wasn't great comms from the school and some other parents made the same mistake but still, I never usually make these kind of mistakes, I usually have a mind for details. I am also so angry with myself.

A mind for detail - that’s EXACTLY who I was. And it’s making me so sad that I’m not good at that any more. I’m not sure what to do.

You’re doing your best though. Will it cause you or DS a problem that he can’t start on Monday?

Not too much, just a huge disappointment to him, so I feel I've let him down with my mistake. Of all the innumerable school things I have to remember how could I miss such a big one! Hopefully your focus will come back when situations become more normal. Although with each child arriving and each advancing year I have to accept a decline in service from my brain :)

Fortunately I’m onmat leave or who knows what I’d be messing up at work. We’re all spread too thin at the moment.

We are spread too thin. Homeschooling x 3, work, everything.

I took a HUGE career break after having children and it was massive mistake. I went back a few years again but I still think I am the working person from my early 30s and I am now faci up to the fact that I am not.

Deep breaths, it’s the weekend (not that that means too much right now )

Thank you for starting this thread.

Yes, completely identify with what you say; forgetful, absent minded, unable to focus, irritable, I feel isolated and so very exhausted. On Wednesday morning I actually couldn't remember what day it was and I felt so upset about that, I thought I might be losing my marbles.

I feel a little better that I'm not the only one (although I don't wish it on anyone).

When I first had to work from home I thought 'great, I won't miss the commute and I'll save tons on petrol costs' and that's true but now I feel worse than when I commute and go into the clinic every day!

My brain is fog right now.
I don't remember anything.
Not conversations or things I read or watch.
I'm not working, or home schooling, my days are spent in a blur looking after my 2year old.
I've actually convinced myself I have early onset dementia. My brain seems to have left the building.

I hear you and I sympathise.

@BigBirdsbird yes, yes, me too. I don't remember conversations either, or things I've done - I keep checking that I've done things because I can't remember.

You're not alone. I donated today, and cocked up the form, pulled on the door marked push, forgot my birthday, twitched and spilled crisps down my shirt...god knows how I made it there and back.

I'm glad I've read this today because I've thought it was just me feeling like this. Definitely feel like I'm spread too thin. I feel like I have to be available to everyone one at all minutes of the day. Kids in the day time, work in the evenings, distant family members who suddenly want to speak to me every evening the second my kids finally disappear off to bed!!

God, the bedtimes! If my 9yo is settled by 10pm that’s a win right now.
Disgrace your birthday! I’ll say happy birthday now in case I forget...
Brain fog, galloping anxiety, forgetfulness - I’ve got the holy trinity.