No friends, no family support and struggling

[CamouflagedManeuvers]

I'm new here and just wanted a place where I can talk to people rather than my own head all the time. I'm tired, I've got anxiety, PTSD and depression, I'm a single Mum to 3 DC and I'm struggling.

I have no friends, my self confidence is at an all time low because I've let myself go and my family never call to check in on me and if I'm having a bad day they could care less because I have other siblings who are far more successful than myself.

All I see are these 4 walls, my children are under 10 and although I love them I am craving adult interaction. I'm fine during the day, I homeschool, do the mum stuff but as soon as nighttime comes it's a battle in my head of how shit everything is and I stay up hating myself because of it.

I'm tired, I'm upset and I don't know how to get myself out of this hole I feel like I'm in at the moment. I've been on antidepressants, been to therapy and nothing seems to work. I hate myself more than I ever have and I'm here for my Children and that's all, without them I would see no point to life.

I don't know what to do, everyday is a struggle and I'm just tired of it.

Didn't want to read and run op

You are completely not alone with feeling like this. I'm a single mum of 3 and the evenings are awful. I too have no family nearby. Is it worth going back to your GP? It's incredibly isolating at the moment for many many people with lockdown restrictions etc

You're not alone

@CamouflagedManeuvers I'm the same,3 children one disabled, mental health at an all time low, no family support and every day is a battle to get through. Life feels so joyless. Sending you feelings and thoughts of solidarity, you're not alone ,may we be given happiness soon.

Thank you for your kind messages. I hope for the best for both of you, I wouldn't wish this feeling on anyone.

Seeing the GP is difficult, I would have to take the children which would be hard. I just don't know what to do anymore, it just feels like it will never get better.

You probably wouldn't see the GP in person right now anyway, it would likely be a phone consultation. That could be easier anyway with your children. Phone the surgery tomorrow and say you need to speak to a doctor. All the best.

My GP has been calling me every 2-4 weeks once I made them aware that I was struggling. I actually prefer these kinds of appointments to face to face as I just feel more confident and less put on the spot so I can properly articulate my feelings. I suspect this kind of thing is the new normal for now.

Antidepressants help regulate your mood, and counselling helps you talk through what's going wrong and hopefully find solutions but nothing changes if nothing changes.

Once we're able to mingle together again safely, you should make sure you and your children get out of the house as much as possible and try and find like-minded adults to talk to.

I re-downloaded mush, which was a bit shit when I was pregnant and just after birth, but now every one is locked down I find myself messaging quite a few people whom I've never met but we all have a friendly chit chat and it just makes me feel less alone. Perhaps you could give that a try too?

I hope you find something that helps OP.

Have you tried fluoxetine? It's Prozac. I'm in a similar situation to you and started that recently and it's made me feel a lot better.