Anyone else feeling depressed?

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Have had some good and bad weeks during lockdown and at the moment just feel rubbish. Waking up feeling depressed and overwhelmed and struggling to get much done. I’m hoping a productive phase comes around soon 😆 Anyone else feeling a bit crap? How are you coping?

I've been ok, I thought it was coming to an end back to work (in school) things felt more normal.
Now I just think it is going to be worse than ever, all those mass gatherings ( some for understandable reasons but still so risky) I was sure we wouldn't get more than localised peaks. Now I'm sure we will have a huge second wave.

I seem to be struggling with brain fog, forgetfulness and feel going round in circles.
I’m back to work from furlough on Monday and I’m pleased to be able to gain some focus in life but worried about people, travelling, 2nd wave and how my young teen is going to have to help motivate himself for few hrs on school work , whilst I work.
I’ve truly felt like a very old lady this week with the memory issues.I've read that it is a reaction to ongoing stress and although I feel I’m just about coping , I guess somewhere in my brain it’s not.
No help to you at all Op but you are not alone .

I'm having a bad week too, OP.

I feel completely "people'd out" and I just want some space and for everyone to stop needing me for something.

I feel knackered, which I know for me is a sign of things not being ok.

Yeah starting to feel worn down now. I’m usually the strong one carrying DH through but I’m finding lockdown increasingly though. I’m lucky I have secure employment no financial worries in good health etc but I’m just sick! DD is teething and really suffering, work was ridiculously manic and all I want to do is get dressed up and go out for a nice meal! First world problems I know, but it’s getting me down now, feel like it’s Groundhog Day

Yeah, I'm struggling. I'm just keeping on going, pretending I'm fine. It's what I do. (I also spend a bit of time whingeing about it on here). Alcohol helps stay strong OP

I thought things would get better this week with my DC being back at nursery part-time but I’m feeling really low. Work demands (nhs) are increasing, my elderly parents aren’t coping with isolation and now have mental health issues which are really hard for me to support from a distance, and I found out yesterday that the summer holiday childcare I had booked won’t be happening, so I am facing another 6 weeks of trying to juggle work with childcare over the summer. I can’t see an end to this and I don’t know how much longer I can keep going.

I've struggled this week too. I've been up down through lockdown but I've been feeling really flat, no energy, and completely drained. Kids are bored, husband is bored, we are all bored. None of us has the energy to do anything and I hate to say it but technology is king in our house these days.

I cant even be bothered to drink wine anymore! - its tough. I'm sorry all of you are feeling low today. Its very hard isnt it.

Yes I am too. I wish there was a magic bullet!

Thanks for all the responses

Sorry to hear others are struggling too, although it does help to know you’re not alone.

@ZebraF that sounds really tough, that’s a lot of pressure from all different directions. Thank you for the work you do.

@CakeInMyFace

Yes been feeling v much the same this week. No motivation, totally stale and drained! We had an extremely lazy day yesterday which hopefully got it out our systems a bit as we actually were a bit ‘lazied out’. Had a family quiz over video in the evening which was lovely and definitely cheered us up. Think the lack of interaction and outside stimulation can be really draining at times.

@helia yes! It seems to go in cycles here - trying to keep motivated and keep the doldrums at bay! It’s all new I guess so still working out longer term strategies to keep going and keep moving forward.

Thanks @Ghostlyglow Agree, definitely helps to vent a bit!! And wine intake has definitely increased round here!! Sorry to hear you’re struggling too

I think it’s the change in weather 🙁.

The good weather has made lockdown bearable, even enjoyable for us.

Going back to normal-is work has done me the power of good. I was on the rota to teach key workers every 3 weeks which meant a lot more time at home with my delightful offspring (actually they have been pretty good but you can have too much of a good thing. Plus they hate home school.)

Now I'm back to my normal work pattern my mood has lifted.

I've stopped drinking almost completely, just one night of alcohol in the last 3 weeks which has also helped.

I don't watch the news.

Yes me, my go gave me fluoxetine and it's worked wonders.

I've been ok ish up until the last week or so. The whole world is such a fucking mess and it's really getting me down.

Me too today, I just want 5 minutes peace! Came out to the garden for a breather, wasnt here a minute before dh needed me for something followed by ds. Baby dd now needs feeding. I think, for me, it's the change in weather coupled with the realisation that the slight easing of lockdown doesnt help me much at all and that I'll be back at work after mat leave and this mess will still be raging! And breathe! Paint that smile on and back into battle!

I don’t know how to carry on with this. It has been and still is, a nightmare from day one.

I’ve been made to feel expendable, useless, unnecessary and definitely not worth saving. I don’t think I’ll see my family again irl and I can’t bear the thought of more months of this. It’s existing, that’s all.

A few of us in my friendship circle feel like yourself OP. One of them talked about ‘coronavirus fatigue’ and I looked it up this weekend. All makes sense

www.google.co.uk/amp/s/www.independent.co.uk/life-style/health-and-families/coronavirus-lockdown-tired-sleepy-fatigue-daylight-routine-a9450196.html%3famp

Seeing my parents for a socially distant walk has really helped me feel better too. Hadn't seen them for 4 months.

Agree @TazSyd realised when it went grey what a difference it makes!!

@Bluewavescrashing glad to hear your mood has improved since you went back!

I think the routine and interaction (and time out of the house!) makes such a difference. Easy to mentally lose touch with things a bit when you’re away from things for so long. Glad the transition back has been a good one!

I feel dreadful too.
I’ve got so much work to do and 2 small dc and I’m absolutely shattered.
I can’t motivate myself to do anything productive.
My boss has been lovely and even sent me flowers yesterday as a thanks for working so hard but I don’t know if I can keep this up much longer.
I’m scared if I start crying I won’t be able to stop.

@longtimecomin sorry to hear you were struggling too, and fantastic that you’ve had a good result finding something that works. I was on AD for quite a while (different type to you) and found them really effective in getting the coping skills back that I needed to help myself. I only recently finally withdrew from them, but is good to know they’re there as an option. Can be a real life line and really effective

Me too, struggling mainly with the state of the house. I tidy it and 2 mins later the kids have returned it to previous mess. I don't even know where to begin. I'm still going into work and while it's stressful and very different and very intense. I don't stop the whole time I'm there except to grab a bite at lunchtime. I'm actually glad of it. It's the only time I feel motivated.

Exercise, reading a good book is helping me at the moment. I fell away from these and was reading too much news which is all very sad at the moment.