My DS is now six months old. He is such a happy lovely baby. He rarely causes me any issues and I feel incredibly lucky when I hear of other people having problems with their babies. I'm not blowing my own trumpet but objectively I know he is well looked after and I love him more than anything else in the entire world. But I can't help but feel I'm failing him. We have started to meet people socially at a distance and I can only manage a couple of hours before my anxiety hits the roof and I need to get back to the safety of home. I start panicking that he is going to get ill and I've done something wrong and all other mother's would have done it all differently to how I did it. I'm constantly now ringing my poor mum for her advice and reassurance. I feel sick most of the time. I'm living off biscuits and not drinking enough so I feel like crap. My day is filled with feeling guilty I'm not getting him to nap properly and for long enough whilst trying to play with him and entertain him then also getting all the chores done and dinner cooked. I'm exhausted and I go to sleep early only to wake up in the night and worry about everything and cry. And then the new day begins and the cycle continues. Obviously I feel I probably should contact a GP but is this usual, is this just part of being a parent and like anything it will eventually just pass? I don't really want to go on antidepressants because I can't sleep with them and they make me feel horrible. I don't really know what to do.