*Trigger Warning* George Floyd

[Idontknow23]

I don't really know why I am posting but I cannot get George Floyd off of my mind and what happened in America, its reduced me to tears twice just imagining if it was your own child. It was awful what happened on its own but then there was a Facebook post that shared other details which I didn't intentionally know I'd be reading such as him shouting for his mum who isn't alive, his nose bleeding and his bladder giving way, how is that a dignified way to die??? The whole world knows this now too and I'm sorry for even repeating it. The poor poor man! Why did no-one jump in? Maybe I am massively naive but is it because they would have been shot? Or pepper sprayed? Surely 2 men could have thought forget this and pull the officer off him, wouldn't it be worth getting pepper sprayed for? What must George have thought laying there wondering why no-one is helping and just stood around.

How do people process these disturbing stories?? I haven't watched the video and I couldn't! I truly feel sickened to the stomach and disturbed at what he went through, do people just try and put it out their minds or what? Doesn't mean it didn't happen or his suffering was any less by not thinking about it. I am so sad for him!!!!

There were 4 police officers. If anyone physically intervened they would probably have been shot.

As every day goes by I feel angrier, sicker and more helpless than ever about this.

Truly, this is an abomination in the true sense of the word and I cannot articulate the dismay I feel

I understand about being shot but if there wasnt a chance of that happening I feel like I'd have jumped in myself, like it would be worth serving time to save someone's life.

@AnyFucker I agree, it is up there with one of the most saddest things I have ever read I feel truly disturbed about the details. God I hope he's in a better place!!

They have just shown a bit of the video again on the news, it makes me feel sick. So awful.

@Idontknow23

I understand about being shot but if there wasnt a chance of that happening I feel like I'd have jumped in myself, like it would be worth serving time to save someone's life.

@AnyFucker I agree, it is up there with one of the most saddest things I have ever read I feel truly disturbed about the details. God I hope he's in a better place!!

I expect the people there would have jumped in as well if there wasn't a chance of being shot.

It is abhorrent. The officers showed complete disregard for another persons life. There are other ways to restrain someone if they are being violent but by all accounts George Floyd wasn't being violent but my point is even if he had been there was no need to use such tactics.

I'm struggling to find the words of how I feel , seeing his lifeless body made me cry and that police officer starring at the camera makes me want to be sick.

It's not something you can just forget over night and we shouldn't forget either.

Take that back , that Murderer not police officer!

I'm crying again I just feel so sorry for him!!! To just suffer so much in front of so many people and there's nothing that can make this go away! He must have thought what have I done why am I going through this, to lose control of his bladder that just really gets me! It fucking pains me so much and what he went through, why do such bad things happen to people especially if innocent. I'm sobbing over it! I know I don't know him and I am very invested but I feel so strongly to say I am slightly heartbroken for him

The way he died and called out...and they did not care! That is what is so upsetting about it. He knew what he was doing! How it was likely to end you would be a idoit to not realise what compresses someones neck could do.

It's also scary to think what wouldve happened without the video evidence.. like the Ahmaud Abery case it could've easily been swept under till things came to light.

I know on the one hand it's disgusting that it was recorded etc and to be honest I wish they would stop the video being circulated so he could have some dignity but then without the recording the disgusting slime ball weasel weak bully could have got away with it!!! And maybe the person recording did it for evidence too. I hope he gets sent to prison and I hope he's crying like a little baby right now and scared senseless at what prison will do to him! He is absolute scum!!!! I hope he gets tortured 10x worse! I'm sorry for speaking strongly on here but I'll never feel sorry for any bad that comes towards him because that's all he deserves and I hope it's an awful existence for him!!!

Don't say sorry for feeling so strongly

My rage is huge about this and my sheer helplessness in the face of it only compounds it further

These are dark times, for sure

I know and that's it the helplessness! What are we supposed to do?? The sadness of this all cannot be reversed for George. I just hope in some way he can see the support he is receiving although for him personally it is too late and that's what's so awful! There is just no comfort at the end of this......

I don't even feel like this is relevant but I don't even feel strongly about this because I am black, I'm not, I'm white but on a human level this is disgusting and sad. I would feel sadness towards any person that went through this whether Chinese, Indian, Spanish, whatever!

I'm sorry to George that humans did this to him!!

I don't understand why the murderer is being charged only 3rd degree murder and manslaughter?! What an absolute joke. It's First Degree Murder, by a psychopath no less. And many witnesses.

He deserves to be executed for what he did. But we know he'll just get a slap on the wrist.

@AnyFucker

As every day goes by I feel angrier, sicker and more helpless than ever about this.

Truly, this is an abomination in the true sense of the word and I cannot articulate the dismay I feel

Completely agree with @AnyFucker

I think one of the reasons it's so shocking is that the murderer knew he was being filmed, was aware he was being watched and must have known, on some level, that he was killing someone in public view. Yet, he was arrogant enough to think his badge and position would protect him.

To me, the humiliation of the murder and Mr Floyds last moments are heartbreaking, but the conscious, slow and methodical killing - because that's what it was - despite the onlookers and the filming, makes it chilling to the bone.

It's not the same as a policeman 'accidentally' shooting a black man because they claim they thought he was armed. It was was the slow and deliberate taking of a life from a man who was begging to live.

I think that is why I feel so much shock along with my anger.

I am probably hugely naive, but i look for the signs of hope. It is abhorrent that George was murdered by people who Should have protected him. It is horrible to know that his family and friends watched him die on camera. It is disgusting that George is just one in a long list of black men killed in custody.

But the murderer has been charged. Officers in new Jersey joined in with the peaceful protest (this to me is hugely important - officers condemning the actions rather than closing ranks - if just one of the four ex officers had stood up to the murderer, George would be alive). The video evidence and the police cams show the situation so bluntly that noone could make excuses for the murder. Maybe, just maybe, his murder will improve the lives of black Americans. I can only hope, which takes away some of the anger.