Help me be more content

[jess3817]

I'm lucky in many ways. Four children, I'm a self employed cleaner so work the hours I want to. Got some good friends, have a few hobbies- running, walking and yoga.
But I sometimes feel like I want to do more with my life. About ten years ago I got accepted into uni to train as midwife, and because of my situation at the time I couldn't take the offer and had to give it up so, some times I wish I could still go to uni to do a degree (didn't have the grades when I was younger ) I feel i can't now because of how much it costs.
Is 40 to old to re train for something? I love the work I do but not sure I want to do it for he next 30 years but shouldnt I just be happy with the way things are? How do I get over the money side of things if I do go for it?

You only have one life

In terms of being contented I found writing daily gratitudes really helpful. There’s a great book called The Unexpected Joy of the Ordinary which is all about this. Basically at the end of the day I write down between 6 and 8 things I’m grateful for. They have to be quite specific rather than general (Eg I am grateful that I did the washing yesterday so that, I can sit on my clean picnic rug in the sunshine without feeling like I should do the washing). I struggling with my mental health and this has been helpful.

As for retraining - it’s not too late. A friend of the family retrained as a midwife at 40 and was really happy. I can’t comment on how to fund it though I’m afraid (student loans?!).

@attackedbycritters - that's very true. @LadyLooLaa that's a really good idea, I like that. Will look up the book too - thank you

You only have one life.

Look into the midwife training and see if you can afford it. Once you know that then you can consider if you want to proceed.

@Elieza think I'll look into it otherwise I'll keep wondering what if.