Hi I’m a mum of a four year old and 1 year old. Both pregnancy’s were good but my second daughters birth was traumatic and I felt I lost the happy birthing experience. When I was home I struggled to bond the first few days and had the baby blues. I over came them and put my birth to the back of my mind having the odd moment of worry I wasn’t bonding with her as well as I’m eldest. 10months later I start getting anxiety, fearing for the girls when they weren’t with me. It came from no where and got worse with me suffering anxiety in my every day life up to the point when I was at work I burst into tears. Simple tasks have become difficult with constant self doubt. I’m having counselling now and on medication which is slowly helping but my counsellor has suggested I have post natal depression due to things I’ve told her. I can see what she’s saying but didn’t think it was possible for it to appear 10 months after my daughter was born?? Is anyone else having similar experiences?
It sounds silly but my husband made a light hearted comment that my eldest was a mummy’s girl but my youngest was a daddy’s girl, this just really upset me and got really worried about her not loving me. Stupid I know!!