I had a lovely friend when I was a child, we both had somewhat difficult childhoods for various reasons, both of us abused in childhood and we were both bullied badly. She wasn’t a regular school attender and she wasn’t cared for well at all . She was though the best friend I had for years - indeed, she was my only friend for a very long time - and I still think of her fondly now, as an adult, despite having lost contact many years ago .
Looking at older photos today and searched her on Facebook to see hos she’s doing, what she’s up to and she’s been in prison for several years for various crimes - serious crime . She’s obviously had a hell of a time in the last while and she’s done some terrible things .
I know how stupid I sound and probably naive but I almost feel guilty , and overwhelmingly sad for her, I was picked up (in a manner of speaking) in my late teens and given a great deal of support and care and helped to find my place in society . I struggle with my mental health and have always needed a lot of help but I have had opportunities and been able to achieve stuff .
I know it’s absolutely nothing to do with me, and I have no desire to contact her or her family, but just feel so bloody sad for her and can’t believe how different our lives have gone, why she couldn’t have been helped to escape the cycle, so to speak . In my head she’s still my lovely wee girl that I spent the best part of three years with - I know how daft that sounds. Just wondering if how I’m feeling is normal, if anyone’s sort of discovered similar before .