Hi everyone, I’m not sure if this is the correct place to post this, I wasn’t sure where to post it to be quite honest !
I’m a mum of four (9,7,6,4) I’m 28.
I work as a TA in a secondary school (1:1 with a SEN student) , I‘m also completing a Level 3 diploma in Specialist support for teaching and learning in schools, I’m less than a 1/3 of the way through.
I also have adenomyosis, I’m currently on zoladex injections and am on the waiting list for a hysterectomy. It’s been getting so much worse quite rapidly the only relief is the injections which I’ve now been allowed another three months of because I cannot have an op currently.
I am struggling mentally and physically but especially mentally. Being in a chemical induced menopause with awful side effects such as insomnia, hot flushes and mood swings every two minutes is horrible. I have a history of anxiety and depression anyway.
I’m falling very behind on the course and my condition isn’t getting any better. I’m just about manage to get through the day and be mum without then having to do the coursework on top.
My other half says to quit the course and try to do it again at a later stage when I’m no longer in chronic pain/struggling. My job is secure and I’m currently working from home and supporting where I can due to COVID but I have considered leaving due to how I’m feeling just being mum is hard at the moment let alone working and doing a qualification and dealing with this condition.
I feel weak and a failure for quitting the course (and possibly) my job until I’m better but I’m struggling so much and I feel my mental health is deteriorating rapidly again. I had a break down a few years ago and really don’t want to go back to that ‘place’ 🙁
I don’t really know what I’m looking for, just someone to say they get it ? Or advise what they would do. Thanks for reading if you got this far.