Need to vent!

[Lovelymonkeyninetynine]

Hi, I'm really in need of a vent and maybe a little hand hold. I can't complain to anyone irl as I know I am lucky at the moment when others are really suffering.
I'm homeschooling my 2 primary aged dc. I only work a few hours per week. My dh is always working. I'm so grateful we still have money coming in but I'm not coping very well with the constant slog. Everything is down to me, 6 days a week. Food shopping, dogs, cleaning, schooling everything. I'm bloody exhausted.
As I said, I know I'm not badly off in this situation and people have far worse to deal with, that's why I don't want to complain to anyone. Rant over.

You're doing fine can you and the DCs have a lazy day, in pyjamas and watching movies just to give you a break?

Thanks both of you. I think you're right, we need to chill. I need to forget about housework and stuff, it just feels suffocating. I end up in such a bad mood and being horrible and grumpy to the kids. I'm not proud of how miserable and shouty I seem to have become.

I felt like this yesterday.
Because my moods swing like a pendulum this week (last few weeks I was settled...), today it all seems fine again.
I feel it’s hard work just keeping the wheels from falling off.

Have a rest day (or however long works for you and the kids)....
... and screw the housework! It’s the thing that can definitely be abandoned without the world ending.

💐 and hugs OP. I love the idea of a rest day! Chilling and slobbing out. It is difficult and it's relentless. Be kind to yourself

You are doing great x

Thanks again. You're all right, I need to be kind to myself. I often think letting the housework go will stress me out but actually I end up cleaning and tidying non stop and it just shatters me on top of being everything else. Good luck everyone else who's struggling. I love Mumsnet sometimes.

We are mixing school work up with games of Scrabble, jigsaws and wordsearches!
Cake making with dc measuring adding up ingredients..
Still learning imo!!

What does "always working" look like for your husband?

Can't he take on some of the household chores / time with children when he is free?

Basically it isn't fair if he is getting free time but you are not.

I feel you op, I'm at home with two under 3, and dh is working a lot, self employed and hes taking work wherever he can at the moment, to see us through. The word relentless bounces around my head a lot, along with 'ffs' and 'what now?' Trying to keep two kids occupied and meaningfully entertained, not just parked in front of the tv all day (because that makes me feel guilty) keep on top of a mountain of laundry, keep the house clean, keep food on the table, it's never ending.

There are moments of absolute joy though, which I try to hang on to when it all gets too much. We bought a bubble machine and the image of ds and our dog chasing bubbles together makes me smile when I'm feeling particularly stressed.