Hi I need some help advice please desperately.
To cut a long story short myself and husband started with an amicable spilt about 8 months ago and all was moving along fine living in same property (jointly owned)
Until February, beginning of Feb we got into a furious agreement no physical violence but out of temper I tossed down a vase I don't even remember why now, it obviously smashed and we went our separate ways for the eve I stayed at a friend's house. Back to the family home both apologised for being out of order as the argument arose from nothing. One month after I had a visit from a bailiff and given a non molestation order for being violent for smashing a vase and abusive language. And j will point out that until that time we had been fine we just out grew each other.
So I had no choice but to leave the property stayed with a friend for a week and managed to rent a flat not to far away. Since this time I have been stopped bit by bit from seeing my children to the point now I have not seen them for 5 days. I have faced allegations with police involvement all squashed with evidence that the story was made up and a warning to him to stop wasting time. I know with covid things have been difficult as I am still working but due to this non molestation order I am unable to contact him directly and my daughters phone he keeps taking away she has told me this. With Covid I am struggling to find help to see them. I had been seeing them regularly up until 4 weeks ago and I mean by regular time was divided equally 50/50 now its been cut by him without warning to an hour here and there and its killing me inside. I have no money left to pay for a solicitor I'm paying rent and the mortgage 1/2 of the latter, I am booked to place evidence against this molestation order but not until July. I seriously two evenings ago considered ending it all as without them I struggle to function but I do not think I could ever do that as I am not done fighting please any advice of what I can do. My go between is isolated due to more than a few health conditions to avoid Covid and my friend who was completing the change over he will not answer the door to has threatened to call the police nor will answer the phone. Any help please I would be grateful