Confused about my sexuality

[RightNotWrong]

I've been a single parent for a long time. During this time I've only had a 6 week relationship. I'm starting to think about what I'm doing with my life as I have anxiety and this stops me from meeting new people so the situation isn't going to change any time soon but I'm noticing that I'm getting more and more confused with my sexuality.

I'm want to be in a relationship with a man, I'm very timid so someone confident really attracts me but I'm questioning whether my thoughts are because I'm lonely, I've only ever been with a man or because it's something I've wanted for a while but never thought about.

I'm attracted to women, I've never been with one and can't imagine myself being with one, I feel very overwhelmed and confused right now and it's not helped by the fact that my family wouldn't accept me if I told them.

I'm in my 30's, has anyone gone through this or something similar that you could share with me, just so I'm not alone?

I always found women attractive but had seen reactions to lesbians (like kissing on soaps etc) from my family members during my childhood. So I always thought it was wrong.
I honestly thought I couldn't be intimate with another woman until it happened and it was amazing.. don't knock it until you've tried it. It's never too late to explore!

I’m attracted to both genders. Female sexuality can be quite fluid. Although most of us are brought up and encouraged to think we are a certain way.

I thought l was hetrosexual until in my 30s, ( I’m in my 40s now) l was beautifully seduced (and, I hasten to add, very consensually) by another woman when away on a business trip.

These days, I just consider myself as “sexual” without a prefix and I’m comfortable with that.

As for family, there is no need to share more than you are comfortable with. Sex related matters don’t have to be private but they can be if you wish.

Finally, OP, you might want to look up the Kinsey Scale test, it’s quick to do and can be an eye opener.